(I just realised that I have a couple of draft posts that are unpublished. It seems like my past has caught up to the future which is now the present. My feelings have been bottled up inside and was finally revealed. How could I have let that happen? I just wanted him to notice how I felt, hoping that things would change. Who would've know that he wanted to break up. - June 21, 2011.
"Lol that's not the right attitude bum!" ... Pet names after a break up? How original, as if I hadn't missed those. It's like rubbing salt on an open wound. - June 21, 2011.
You said that you're missing me, clearly doesn't seem like it. No matter how much I want to talk to you, constantly message you, call you or see you.. I can't. Such a busy life you have now, I guess that's the reality when you're unattached and have no girlfriend that ties you down. Not that I really did. You're pretty much doing the same thing you did now when you were with me, just more of it and most likely having more fun. I hate talking to you because it hurts so fucking much and when we don't talk, it hurts just as much.
I miss you so much to the point where I hate myself for it.
Dejavu. Do you think of me? Am I on your mind? Are you missing me? Clearly not right now.
I hope you're happy, who am I kidding, of course you are.
Talking to me as if I'm your friend, as if I'm like everyone else. Please. I am not a friend to you so don't waste your precious time on me, because at the end of the day, what am I to you?
"I miss having warm/genuine conversations" - with your friends but not with me.
Oh, if only they invented an emotional xray for the heart to see how broken it is.
"You've cut a hole in my heart and fucked it hard" - quote Tumblr.
This semi-blog post is pretty cold, these feelings have been dwelling deep below for quite some time. - June 23, 2011.
Don't know when I'll ever be truly happy again. Don't think it'll be any time soon unless I am with you. I still love you and want to be with you, all the time. Why can't you be with me? Do you still love me?
You became distant, you started to drift, you decided to break up with me, you've made a shift.
I want to be strong, I want to be able to move on, but I can't move on. I can't stay here forever and wait for you, but I will wait for you. I can only wait for so long, but please don't be too late and make me wait for too long. - June 23, 2011.)
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