Dream

Catch me when I fall.











Or else I won't come back at all.

Late night tonight, or should I say early morning.. 2:43AM and my father has just told me to go to bed. I think it's because I had a 13 hours sleep last night. Just got a lot on my mind or my body clock isn't ready to fall asleep! Second week of the semester.. going swell. I'm a bit behind my homework but I will catch up over the weekend. My head is going nuts I swear, sometimes I feel like crying just let my feelings/emotions convert into tears. Makes me feel less fat, fat being the feelings weighing me down. Unless this is just the post-tom reactions.. I doubt it though. My dreams have been out of whack lately. Usually I'd remember them the next day or remember it clearly.. but last night I was only able to remember a small part of my dream and the other half. Basically two parts to my dream, I remembered half but the other half was foggy.. weird. I don't know hey..

I've been thinking a bit about the past.. little things that I see which bring back memories, well moments of my life which happened long ago. It somehow gets mooshed into my dreams with the present. Weird. I can't explain it any better but I wish I could. My subconscious and conscious mind are somewhat interrelated but totally irrelevant to one another if you get what I mean. Anyhoo...

There's this other thing, sort of in my head but mainly further down.. a bit deeper maybe. Something inside of me that wants to jump out, burst out of it's bubble, go crazy, cry itself out.. I don't know! But it's something inside of me that is bugging me.. I don't know what it is!! Definitely not a crisis or anything... perhaps anger or rage.. some sort of feeling.. Gosh I'm going insane in the membrane of my brain!! Gees honey, issues much? I think it's just everything that I've been keeping inside for the past x time.. that hasn't been able to get out. Like Homer Simpson when he turned into the Hulk because he kept all his anger and emotions inside. One day I'm going to be the Hulk and just explode.. I hope not though, gosh.. I'd hate to be there when it hits the final straw.

2:59AM been up for 15 hours. Laters