Three words

M.I.A.?
So it's been two months since my last post, and I am still unfit like a potato on a couch. My life has been all over the shop for awhile but I'm starting to pick things up here and there. Let's just say it's not like how it used to be - I'm not like how I used to be. I am honestly disappointed in myself and god forbid my mother would be too and would immediately disown me as her daughter. I should tell her what's going on, I am in need of a slap in the face to bring me back to reality and to what I've done (okay maybe not literally but yeah you get what I mean).

A friend once told me that life is like a photo, you need the negatives to develop - pretty cool ha. Yeah, why do I feel like I have nothing left to say.. pretty sure there's plenty of things wondering in my mind. Maybe I just need so sleep.. yeah I'll go to bed soon.

Mm.. Today was a nice day, 27 degrees or something and not a cloud in the sky. Anyways it was a fine sunny day, I got out of bed around 10ish since I woke up suddenly and couldn't go back to sleep. I left the house around midday so it was really warm outside.. I finally did the errands I've been meaning to do for a long time! Went to an op shop to donate some things and to recycle some plastic bags - speaking of bags, the op shop had some cute ones but my window shopping was limited today. I went to the bank after to exchange the treasury money for Youth Group into cash and OMG it has made things lighter! The machine they have at the bank is so awesome and yay! I'm an account holder so they didn't deduct any fees. Thought I'd go for a drive down to the beach since it was a lovely day and the water was beautiful.. pretty sure I drove up and down west coast hwy/drv 4 times. That reminds me, I need to fill up the tank - hate it when it's empty and the light keeps flashing!!

Oh speaking of annoying things, the sound on my computer doesn't work! I got a friend to reformat my computer, it came back all good but it can't speak! It's missing like the Video Controller (VGA compatible) device and something other device thingamajig. Eh, I'll fix it soon cos I need music! iour97q3498264862312kjat7*%&**(EBG&*(BB (R97b75478467578sxm. Yeah.. my head hurts. I've worn my hair up til now since work and wow it really strained my head. Hurry up and grow longer!! I'm thinking about chopping it short when my fringe reaches my shoulders-ish. Either that or I just restyle my hair.. or just leave it long and ew, I'll just wait and see.

Less than two months until my 19th birthday, I'm not that excited about it anymore but I look forward to how things will be after I turn 19. Hopefully it's better than being 18. Mm.. think I'll wrap things up now.. wait - Three words, the title of this entry. Yeah, it's a song but it's related to me in many other three worded combinations. i.e. dirty lying cheat. Yep. I finally admit this to myself. I am a dirty lying cheat you know why? Because I did the dirty deed, I lied about it and I cheated. Ha - the complete opposite of the person I used to be. The person who had morals and beliefs which opposed those three. That believed those doings were bad, were wrong, were not to be done. Gosh, if only the "me" from then was here to slap the me today. Honestly, I've become my own monster.

Lady Gaga sings the words "he ate my heart" well I say to myself bitch you pretty much ate your own heart and spat it out. The pain you've caused is one of a kind, the most selfish act and hurtful of all. Not only to others but to yourself in the process, ffs use your academic brain and think outside the square for once. I'm sure you can do that since you're good at maths especially when it comes to algebra and trigonometry, wait sorry you're lacking some LOGIC. No wonder you were always border line in the top f ing maths units, pick up your pencil and learn from your mistakes, that's why the pencil has an eraser for crying out loud.

Yeah total self bitch slap in the face to myself with a bit common sense coming from my inner mathlete.
What have I gained out of this? Nothing but a reality check and a lesson in life. Tomorrow is a new day and it'll be better than today, just remember yesterday's lesson girl. Gonna go to bed before I turn into a zombie.

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P.S. Take care and get plump lychee.